Today I took another major step in my author journey.
I have officially submitted my query to 3 agents as of 6:45 this morning.
I never thought I would make it this far. I have a novel that I love. No, seriously. This book I've spent so long working on is the book I have always wanted to read. I know it sounds conceited and insane, but I even love re-reading it. Its my work, but it is something I have been looking for.
I agonized over this portion. I wrote a little query letter that, admittedly, I find quite good. I'm still working on a full synopsis, but that's ok. I focused on a few agencies that don't ask for one. I sent in my letter, I copied the pages they wanted, I gave them my contact info.
Actively seeking representation. I can't believe I'm here.
For a long time, I didn't even want people to know I was a writer. Sure, I only wrote RPGs and fanfiction for WAY longer than I'll ever admit in public, but I was still writing. I still had the burn in my gut that forced me to a notebook or a keyboard day after day. Even when people in my life made fun of my dream or insisted I was wasting my time with the fun parts of said dream, I kept that little flame, that hope alive in my heart.
Now, I proudly say that I am a writer. Not an aspiring writer, not "I hope to be", I am a writer. I write, therefore, I am, right?
Even if this gets rejected by everyone and their mother, I'm proud of myself. I never thought I'd get this far, never mind that I would be confident enough in my work to tell agents "I'm worth it, come and see".
And I am. I know my book is worth it.
So, I'm celebrating this morning. I hit another milestone. Actively seeking representation. The query phase. I'm prepared for weeks, months of rejection. That's fine. I'll deal. I put myself out there and I do not intend to stop any time soon.