One thing to know about it
Another thing to feel it.
Man, all it takes is two quick rejections to get me doubting. Not too much, exactly, but definitely starting to doubt.
I'm working on another project, one I've had on the backburner for a while. I have two, actually, so it's not like I'm out of projects or ideas.
What I'm not doing, not yet, is working on The Guardian's sequel. I need to work on something else for while. Both my Broken Eden (another angel/demon novel that takes place after demons have won the Earth) and my Firedrake story (About a young man suddenly playing host to a symbiotic dragon being dragged through various magical realms) are one offs, so that may give them a better chance at being published.
I am by no means giving up on Guardian. I'm still querying, still writing the synopsis and taking a seminar this month on querying, pitching, and agents. So, its still in the works. I just refuse to put all my eggs into one basket. I have other stories to tell, after all!
I just knew there would be rejections. I prepared myself for it. I did, really. But getting those emails still hurts. I still have doubt creeping in, which is ridiculous since I KNOW I have a good novel here. Its just part of the process.
I'm lucky enough to have a great support system. My friends, my husband, they all keep encouraging me to continue with queries, to take the classes, work on new projects.
I guess I didn't expect it to hit me as hard as it did, especially when I wasn't expecting any responses just yet!
Also, just found out we have to move so there's added stress. Oh well. I'm gonna keep on keeping on! As long as I have my notebook and my laptop/flash drive, I'll be ok!